Hi Kelli! Can you discuss improving your health with law of attraction? Or just how our thoughts manifest in our bodies?
Many people may be drawn to a teaching like the law of attraction to improve a health issue. This can be an area where believing in mind over matter can be particularly challenging. We haven’t exactly been strongly instilled with the idea we can heal ourselves.
While the medical community may acknowledge some sort of link between our state of mind and our health, in the form of stress mainly, that illness begins in our energy body in the form of stuck and repressed emotions, and the like, and then manifests in the physical may seem like a bit of a stretch.
The idea that disease itself is a symptom of some sort of energetic/emotional imbalance, and not the result of some solely physical ‘malfunction,’ that the label of a specific illness isn’t even technically necessary for healing, can seem a bit out there.
There are so many angles to cover here and I couldn’t possibly touch on them all. I think this is one aspect of life in particular where trying to ‘understand’ and ‘make sense’ of fully how our energy manifests itself will be particularly futile, so I’m not going to go into that, especially since I don’t even fully understand it myself.
Having personally experienced a serious health issue I was able to heal in this manner, I do have some personal insights that I can share, and I have touched upon the core things I think were most helpful in my own journey, and hopefully you will find some value in that.
What Does the Illness Represent to You?
Like any other manifestation, a health issue is mirroring something back to you. It is bringing a fear to light; it is validating some sort of belief or perspective you hold. It feels like other feelings you have been having. It is representing SOMETHING.
In my situation, the specific nature of my health issue was mirroring back a number of fears for me, fears that I was aware of to some degree, but didn’t realize how strong, until this condition showed up, literally overnight.
One of my biggest fears had been the loss of my freedom, something I value very highly, so highly I crafted my whole life around being able to experience it as much as possible.
The condition I was dealing with caused a lot of pain and affected my mobility–all of a sudden I couldn’t do the simplest tasks, things I wouldn’t think twice about before, like walking, opening a bottle of water or washing my hair.
If things continued like they were, I could kiss traveling good-bye, one of the things I love most in life. I was devastated.
Ryan had to do so much for me during this time, and I felt a deep shame at needing so much help, when I had always prided myself on my independence. I worried he would resent me for being ‘weak,’ for ‘ruining’ our life.
At the time my symptoms showed up, I had been making a lot of strides in other areas of my life, and felt like I had released a lot of shit. I was feeling good. And then this thing happened. I remember thinking how when things are going well, something has to come along and ruin it, that there always has to be that ‘balance.’
This is a pretty deeply ingrained universal belief, that when we have a better understanding of how reality functions, is complete bullshit and makes zero sense. But alas, I was harboring it, again, to a stronger degree than I realized.
The important thing when doing this, is letting whatever comes up, come up without judgment. Some of the beliefs may seem really weird or out there. Some of the beliefs may be beliefs that you intellectually understand are not valid, based on your understanding of a teaching like the law of attraction, but you still kind of believe them, so you have to be honest about that.
Thinking in terms of metaphors can also be helpful. Maybe your joint pain represents a lack of flexibility. Your back pain represents carrying some sort of burden. Chronic constipation might mean you are holding onto something that you really should let go.
When considering this, just let whatever comes up, come up, even if it doesn’t seem to make sense. Manifestations are very personal, so whatever is popping into your mind is surely relevant.
Diving into the Shit
Like anyone else, I Googled my symptoms, and they pointed to a number of really distressing conditions, conditions considered chronic and incurable, conditions where my symptoms would just get worse, conditions where a number of other symptoms would likely emerge at some point, conditions where my only option, at least according to the medical community, would be to take toxic medications that would likely cause a lot of really terrible side effects.
I feared whatever was happening to me was just the beginning and it was going to get much, much worse. I was just in the early stages of something that was going to stay with me the rest of my life. I was going to be a ‘sick’ person. With no warning, I felt like my life had completely changed, and every facet of it was going to be dictated by my ‘sickness.’
Like anyone else, I am instilled with fears and conditioning that doesn’t exactly support our ability to heal ourselves, that doesn’t exactly support a better-feeling perspective on illness. I bought into the idea my body was out of my control, and that there wasn’t anything I could do.
One day I was healthy, and the next day, I was facing a life of chronic pain, potential disability and the loss of my life as I knew it. It was a lot to process. This was a HUGE manifestation for me that brought up so much stuff with an intensity I had never experienced before.
For the first couple of weeks I was dealing with this, I had at least one major meltdown a day, sometimes two. Like nuclear-level meltdown–crying until I couldn’t breathe, feeling total despair. There were times when my husband Ryan, got really scared because he didn’t know what to do with me.
I didn’t realize until this point how much of a fear of getting sick I was harboring.
I felt like I was broken, ‘damaged goods.’ I felt less-than. To feel like there is something fundamentally wrong with you feels really shitty. Now intellectually I understood this wasn’t true. I would never think that way about someone else who had a health problem.
But that is what I was feeling so I had to let myself feel it. Now some of you reading this may not feel that level of distress about your situation; your condition may not be something that feels so scary or has as big of an impact on your day to day life.
My point is, whatever level of emotion you are feeling, whether about your illness or anything else in life, LET YOURSELF FEEL IT to whatever degree it is existing. Don’t judge it. Don’t tone it down because you think you are over-reacting. As wonderful and supportive as Ryan was, I have no doubt on some level, he thought I was fucking nuts.
But the thing is, yeah, I was distressed about the symptoms themselves–I was in a LOT of pain all the time–but what I was really distressed about was what the illness was REPRESENTING to me. And it was representing a lot of things that I found extremely upsetting, things that were very scary to me, and I had to let myself feel the full weight of that fear and upset.
Yes, it may feel really shitty. It might feel scary to let yourself go there. It might be the last thing you feel like doing.
Believe me, I get it. Feeling the way I was feeling, and experiencing it on a daily basis for an extended time, was kind of the worst. Sometimes I just didn’t have the energy and I wanted to bottle it up, but I couldn’t. I knew when I woke up, at some point in the day, it was going to come and I dreaded it.
Past that initial point, I toned down the crying spells quite a bit but they still came here and there, and when they did, I didn’t fight them.
I hated when I was in the space of fearing I wouldn’t get better, of buying into having a condition I can’t cure and just ‘living’ with it. But fighting it wasn’t going to do me a bit of good.
While I knew in my heart I would be able to get better, that I wasn’t going to accept whatever this was, continuing to exist, there were certainly times I was fearful I wouldn’t get better. I feared I would ‘fail’ at healing myself. And I had to let myself have those moments.
I have no doubt my insane breakdowns were the number one contributor to my healing. There was a shift each time I had one. I was purging something. I was letting go of all the deep-seated emotions that were buried in there, that were manifesting as this condition.
My biggest shift in my condition was right after my last big breakdown, the biggest of them all. I know that is not a coincidence.
While I wasn’t freaking out every moment, it was a period of months where I wasn’t feeling so hot, and although my symptoms continuing to improve certainly made it easier to feel better, they weren’t totally gone, nor was the fears I wouldn’t get totally better.
But I got through it. I just surrendered to it, knowing ultimately I was going to be okay. I know we want to avoid negative emotion at all costs; I get that we just want to feel happy all the time.
But feeling badly isn’t the end of the world, and if we are willing to be with our shit, like really be with it, you would be amazed at how much more quickly things can turn around compared to when we try to suppress it, and just sit around hoping we manifest the stuff we want sooner than later so we can finally feel better.
Honoring Fears and Limiting Beliefs
Again, lots of limiting beliefs and perspectives when it comes to health and our bodies. Nothing can trigger our fears like dealing with illness, especially if you are being told you can’t do anything about it.
Believing you can heal yourself, believing your illness is simply an energetic ‘imbalance’ of some sort or just a manifestation of your belief system, can seem really hard to buy into on deeper levels, even for the staunchest believer in these perspectives, when you are actually in the thick of the problem.
Sometimes the best way to transform energetically is honoring our fears and limiting beliefs because they are too strong, and can actually help foster a positive expectation more strongly.
You’ll know when to do this and when to act ‘against’ them.
In my own experience, for example, I chose not to go to a doctor and receive a diagnosis. I imagine most people in my situation would not have done this–sudden onset of pretty serious symptoms that were widespread.
The nature of my symptoms didn’t seem to indicate the need for any immediate medical intervention–I didn’t feel my life was in danger. So while there was certainly a part of me questioning this decision, by and large, I felt this was how I wanted to handle it.
For me PERSONALLY, receiving a diagnosis would have likely been more harmful than helpful. I was already extremely distressed, and having some sort of ‘label’ for my symptoms would have just amplified that. Some people might feel the opposite though, and knowing what it was might have made them feel more empowered.
If my symptoms indicated any of the conditions I thought I might have had, I was just going to be told my condition was chronic and incurable, and given a bunch of medications that would hopefully suppress my symptoms, and that was basically the best I could hope for.
Since I didn’t have any plans to buy into that line of reasoning, and take the medications, I didn’t see a point of going to the doctor.
Whether testing would indicate a specific condition or that there was no identifiable cause for what was happening, clearly there was something very wrong, and getting the specifics didn’t seem necessary.
If what was happening to my body was merely the result of something happening ‘energetically’ what the condition was specifically seemed irrelevant to me, so a diagnosis didn’t seem to be part of the healing equation.
But one thing I did have to honor was my belief that certain natural supplements might have helped my condition. Again, the belief that healing is totally within our own capability, and medications and supplements are mere ‘placebos’ might not be something we can FULLY buy into when we are actually faced with a health problem .
But I didn’t want to go overboard here, so I chose just a few, and committed to taking them diligently.
Now while one could technically label this a limiting belief, a decision that had ‘fear’ at the root, honoring this was actually the more beneficial route because I was doing something I felt would be beneficial, that would help me heal.
To not allow myself to take them because that would indicate a lack of ‘faith’ to heal with just my mind, would have actually worked against me. I would have had too much resistance to this idea; I would have been constantly worrying I wasn’t doing ‘enough’ to facilitate my healing.
Eventually I stopped taking the supplements. I wasn’t totally healed at this point, but was much, much better, and ultimately I knew what was really healing me. So at this time, I felt confident doing this. And I continued to get better.
So if you feel good about taking your medications, keep taking them. If you believe taking a certain supplement or making certain changes to your diet will help, do that.
If you have just been diagnosed with a serious illness, and your doctor is telling you the only thing that will manage your symptoms or keep you alive is taking this pill, and you would be really scared to not take it, take it, at least for now.
Yes, ultimately I believe true healing lies in that energetic transformation, but the idea that we need things outside of us to facilitate healing or prevent disease is pretty deeply ingrained. Honoring that will usually work in our favor. We just want to keep in mind the ultimate source of our healing; we want to remember when the medications and supplements and what not, don’t seem to be ‘working,’ they aren’t the true cause of healing anyway, so it’s okay, and there is still hope.
We want to do our best to take these actions, and make use of the supplements, medications, treatments and special diets from a space of feeling like we are healing ourselves, contributing to our health, not fearing and ‘fighting’ the conditions.
Staying Energetically Healthy
When we start seeing the link more clearly between our energy and our health, it can be a great motivator for prioritizing your well-being and vibration ‘management.’
Lots of things that wouldn’t seemingly be connected to getting sick might be very connected.
Lots of energetic ‘ick’ can accumulate over time, from seemingly benign things, or things that don’t seem like a ‘big’ deal but very well may be, like overextending yourself and making too many commitments, to having trouble saying ‘no’ to people, and constantly doing things you really don’t want to be doing.
When we start seeing how all of this stuff can lend itself to illness manifesting, it gets a lot easier to make positive changes, honor ourselves and live our life the way we want to live it.
Doing a bunch of shit you don’t want to do so people you really don’t even care about don’t dislike you hardly seems worth manifesting cancer.
Not living your life the way you want to live it so you don’t make others uncomfortable hardly seems worth manifesting a chronic illness that impacts every facet of your day to day life.
Remaining in relationships with people that are toxic or you just don’t want to be around, but you feel ‘badly’ ending them hardly seems worth constant digestive distress.
Pursuing a stressful career path in which you have no interest, simply to please your parents, hardly seems worth blinding migraines.
It would seem there can be some pretty serious consequences to not being true to ourselves, not standing up for ourselves, not living our life the way we want to live it, always trying to please others, putting our own needs last.
Having health issues kind of sucks, and I imagine most of us would want to do as much as we could to maximize the chances of remaining healthy. Paying attention to ALL the things that drag down your energy, how your choices make you feel, and how much you are living in alignment with your highest good will help you do that.
One of my biggest lessons is working on nipping things in the bud sooner than later. We have to work on not letting things build up. When we do that, the energy just gains more and more steam, and usually ends up manifesting in bigger, nastier ways.
Now this doesn’t mean I spend every waking moment monitoring my thoughts and feelings, or I am constantly ‘processing’ negative emotion. It just means I don’t suppress emotion.
I don’t try to force myself to be happy if I’m not. I don’t judge my emotions and try to shut them down because I think I ‘shouldn’t feel that way given what I know,etc…
While I was dealing with this issue, I made sure I was kind to myself. I didn’t put pressure on myself to do things I didn’t want to do.
During this time, I still blogged and did my podcasts. But only when inspiration struck. I never forced myself to do them if I wasn’t feeling it. And this lack of pressure is what probably led me to still put out content on the same schedule I had always been.
If I had a day where the only thing I wanted to do was watch TV, that is what I did. If I wanted to sleep, I slept.
Nothing was more important to me than healing, and that was my main priority.
In your own life, you may not be able to totally withdraw from everything. You may still have shit you have to do, like take care of your kids. It’s okay. You can still make that healing space. It may involve some uncomfortable choices or changes, but I think it’s worth it.
If I am honest, there is a part of me that sometimes fears this happening again, especially because the symptoms came on so suddenly out of nowhere. I honor that fear–trying to fight it just gives it more energy.
Ultimately at the end of the day, there is nothing I can do to guarantee 100 percent it doesn’t come back–that really isn’t the kind of control we have, much to our mind’s disappointment. At some point, there may be energies that will need to manifest in the physical, and something I need to be shown, and this will be the ‘best’ way to experience it. Hope not, but again, can’t really truly control it.
The only thing I can do is keep in mind the energies that likely led it to show up in the first place, and do my best not to let them build, to be more conscious of what is happening in my inner world, and do my best to keep my vibration as ‘clean’ as possible by reinforcing the beliefs and perspectives that lend themselves to health.
Your Turn
What did you think? Anything resonate in particular? Have you used ‘energy’ work to heal and any suggestions?
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[ Smiles ] Kelli, you have chosen a really interesting topic.
Since everything is based on energy, we always have to consider our emotions, environment and the things that we eat as well (The holistic approach is unavoidable).
I highly recommend, that anyone who is going through issues with health change their approach to life (mainly a positive one) and work out any inner conflict that they may be carrying within and of course, eat in a very healthy manner.
Have a splendid week!
Hi Renard
Thanks so much for your comment and your suggestions. I agree about food…healthy food just feels better!
Kelli,
As someone who is in the midst of turning her life around due partially to a diabetes diagnosis, I really resonated with this post. Being happy for me – I’ve discovered – isn’t just about getting the stuff I want. It’s about loving myself enough to take care of myself energetically, spiritually and physically. I’m learning this is all tied together, so it makes since to be patient with myself and honor where I am now as I work to improve. I’m seeing more and more manifestations showing me I’m on the right path. Thanks so much for sharing!
Jeannie
Hi Jeannie
Thanks for your comment and I am happy the post was helpful for you. Health issues can be a particularly challenging manifestation but also a great opportunity for really big releases. It can be a bit of a bumpy journey as looking beyond ‘what is’ can be a bit harder in these instances. I often think of this time as the best worst thing that ever happened.
So insightful Kelli. I grew up with having a lot of IBS attacks whenever exams and any stressful situation might come up, I found that giving into the pain I felt and saying to myself “it’s just temporary” helped ease the pain a lot. Nowadays I suffer back pain which got a bit less when I started doing zumba dance exercises but after reading this post I feel this back pain is representing my fear of showing who I really am.
Thank you for such an eye opener post 🙂
Hi Yostina
Thanks for your comment and sharing your experience. It sounds like you had a very powerful insight into the back pain. I am sure you will have great success in healing!
Hi Kelli,
This post is very helpful to me and I will definitely put what you teach here into practice.
Hi Ola
Thanks for your comment and so glad you enjoyed it.
“I don’t try to force myself to be happy if I’m not. I don’t judge my emotions and try to shut them down because I think I ‘shouldn’t feel that way given what I know,etc…”
This resonated with me a whole lot.
Even though I’ve only been with my current job for less than half a year, I’ve been constantly falling ill and feeling horrible about everything. I keep trying to tell myself I should stay for a variety of pragmatic reasons (the pay, etc.). Yet every cell in my body seems to be screaming no.
This post cleared things up for me. So thank you, Kelli. Stay healthy and awesome! 🙂
Hi Mav
Thanks for your comment and I am glad you found it helpful. Once we start paying more attention we can see how our body carries many messages for us, showing us where things may be out of balance. In my own experience, the physical manifestations in the form of illness or other discomfort seem to indicate things that were really strong and had been gaining steam for awhile. It sounds like you are aware of changes you need to make–just open yourself up to the solutions presenting themselves and work on building the trust that you are supported and don’t have to stay in any situation that seems so difficult or intolerable. Good luck!
Hi Kelli, I have been practicing LOA from the last several years with great success. However I am severely stuck in one place. From last 5 years, I have been diagnosed with female pattern baldness that seems to only get worse. I am very much worried that I will never heal and m only 30. I was always an introvert and when this condition started, I was going through a period of stress. But now, after doing lots of loa work, I am finally understanding how manifestation works. When I have severe hair fall, I feel very low and directly move into worry, guilt, and powerlessness state. This topic is triggering me a lot and what my biggest concern is I am not able to figure out what resistance m holding onto that caused this. I am also perpetuating the problem by giving more energy to my worries. Please guide me.
Hi Kirti
All your fears and feelings are totally normal. Health issues in particular can really keep us ‘stuck’ in appearances and a frame of mind that makes us feel powerless. Don’t feel so much pressure to ‘fight’ them. It is totally possible to feel all those feelings, and still cultivate ‘positive’ energy that will benefit your body at the same time. While you want to give some thought to what the hair loss may be representing to you, don’t worry too much about nailing down something super-specific. It may even be more general, such as feeling stressed overall. The best thing to do right now is prioritize your well-being–physically, mentally, emotionally. This will be a great start in healing, and in a more relaxed frame of mind, any specific energies, beliefs,etc…may be more easily revealed to you.
Thank you for your prompt reply. I have started meditation and deep breathing and finding it to be quite effective. The prob is still there but I think as you said, more answers will be revealed to me if iam in a positive frame of mind.
You are very welcome Kirti. That is great you are finding techniques that work for you–just keep doing those things. And don’t forget that this consistent building of more positive energy will naturally ‘displace’ some of the energies that may be contributing to the issue, meaning you can begin transforming it without necessarily identifying it or focusing on it specifically and trying to change it.
The article is really helpful . Since last year I am facing digestion issues and constantly on medication. My tests reports are all normal. I have been diagnosed with anxiety as well. There are times when I completely missed hope and there are time when I cry constantly . I feel tired and trapped in this unfit body. But I want to believe that things will all change for good and I will be able to restore back my health. However I sometimes try too hard and feel defeated. This article really gave me a much need motivation to carry on and live my life with grace. My journey to recovery is on.
Hi Nitika
Thanks for your comment and I am glad the post gave you some inspiration to continue your healing journey. I know how frustrating it is. It is good you are allowing your emotions–that is so important and something we may think is not good if we want to attract better health–the pressure to be ‘positive’ and all. If you are feeling stuck as to how to deal with the symptoms specifically, just focus on feeling better physically and emotionally overall–ANYTHING that helps you achieve that will benefit your health even if it doesn’t seem related.
I will be conducting a series of classes all about health and healing starting June 3rd. If you resonate with my work, you will probably find it very helpful. You can read more about it here and see if is something that resonates:
Hi Kelli
Thank you so much for this post. I’m just recently learning about the law of attraction.This has really resonated with me as I struggle with sudden and severe health issues followed by a period of time when I finally felt things were going good for me, but I realize I have many many deep fears that I need to awknowledge and let them go. Thank you for the insight!
Hi Calliz
Thanks for your comment and I am glad you found it helpful. Diving into all that can be really scary and uncomfortable but if you are feeling drawn to exploring those energies, it means it’s the time and you can definitely handle it! Good luck and know that getting things ‘fixed’ internally is the ticket
Also FYI: If you like audio content, you might be interested in checking out a call series I did all about health and healing. It will go more in depth with what I talked about here as well as cover a variety of other topics. You can learn more about it here
Wow! I can really relate to many of your emotions you mentioned in your story. I was in a cycling accident a little over 4 years ago. I don’t remember it at all. I ended up with a brain injury. I had to learn to walk again. Being an athlete and not being able to walk was torture and the fact that a month before I had just married my husband was more torture. I felt and still feel so out of control. I cried so much but stayed motivated to run again and I do now but it’s a struggle. I don’t cycle too much but miss it. Swimming is the easiest. I don’t need a lot of balance to swim. Movement in general is tough. My vision and coordination is the issue. To look at me you wouldn’t know but the struggle is real. I think about manifesting healing a lot but am unsure if I’m doing it or doing it correctly. So I read about manifesting to give me validation or tips. Thank you for your story.
Hi Lila
Thank you for your comment and I am so glad you found the post helpful. Than you also for sharing your story and it sounds like you have a strong determination to heal, and tackling the issue from the angle of mindset and energetic transformation will only strengthen your efforts. Don’t be afraid to dive more deeply into the negative feelings–the frustrations, anger,etc…that will be of tremendous benefit. It sounds like you are doing great, and if you resonated with my perspective on this, you might find my class series about healing from an energetic perspective helpful. You can read more about it here. Good luck and keep on doing what you are doing!
Hello Kelli. I kind of agree with you when you mentioned that healing is within our own capabilities because sometimes I just don’t believe that medicines are the only solutions to our health problem. I am still learning about healing through the energy perspective and I find it very interesting. I totally can relate to some of your experience. Thank you for being so honest with your healing journey.
Hi Maggie
Thanks so much for your comment and I am glad you found the post helpful. It is definitely an interesting aspect of healing to explore, especially if traditional treatments have not been working for us, or if we have been told there is no way to address the health issue. I think the role of energy in the state of our body can be one that is harder to make sense of, and connect the dots. But from my own experience and that of others I have spoken with or heard about, working on this area definitely seemed to have helped so it is definitely worth a shot!
That’s exactly how I feel. It doesn’t make sense at all but that’s what makes it very interesting. And yes, it’s definitely worth a shot especially when medicinal drugs can no longer help us. Thanks for sharing, Kelli.
for hemorrhoids, what’s the best natural remedy would you prescribe… it is in the pre-stage and i believe i can get rid of it without getting to a doctor
Hi Kelli
Thank you so much for that helpful article. This and a few comments really resonated with me. Since my 30th birthday in January I constantly suffer from a bladder infection. I’ve been taking antibiotics all the time and felt weaker and more tired. Now after my third round of the medicine I got the symptoms again and I felt awful. Using the LoA consciously for a while now I thought there has to be something I can do to heal myself. I don’t think that this infection is really in my body but rather in my head and while reading the article and comments my mind worked hard and gave me some nice insight view. There is a huge topic regarding the attention I crave from other poeple, the picture of my body and my natural sex drive which belong to a trauma from my childhood. And suddenly everything makes sense – the infection brings the symptoms I already feel in my mind. So to get rid of the infection (and I strongly believe I can do it without any more medicine rather than taking some natural remedies) I really need to work on that old topic which still seems to be installed in my belief systems.
I started a book which helps me to work further on that trauma. I guess I should read it more often and not give in to the fear.
So thank you for making my mind working in over-drive which feels good because I can see results.
All the best and may the Universe bless your soul.
P.s. While reading and writing this comment my symptoms already feel less acute than before. I believe in myself and my power.
Hi Maria
Thank you so much for sharing your experience and I am so glad you found the article helpful. Like you see, there is some ‘energetic’ component to the condition and the symptoms we experience on the physical level are a perfect representation of it. It sounds like you have already gained so much insight into what the condition may be mirroring back to you, and you will experience the healing you seek. Just keep diving into that emotion…it can be scary but you can handle it! Best of luck to you!
Hi Kelli, I just ran across this article recently and it has sure comforted me so thank you! I have heard so much about LOA regarding you must raise your vibration and feel as if you are healthy. When in pain and feeling anxious it’s really hard to force happy. Some concern has arisen because some say if your vibration doesn’t match being happy and healthy you can’t attract health to you. I assume from reading your article that you didn’t stay positive and happy a lot and you still healed? What a relief. Im really not sure how you force happy when in pain and not sleeping well. Also, how did you deal with your pain? Did you try to not think about it? Or did you think about it but just accepted it? How did you sleep with the pain? I thank you very much for your article!
Hi Stephanie
For me, my healing journey was primarily dealing with the negative emotions I believed were manifesting as the illness. I think there can be value in ‘typical’ LOA teaching about envisioning a desired outcome–in this case a ‘healthy’ body–but that was really secondary in my experience. No, I was not positive all the time by any means–I was actually quite upset a good deal of the time. But feeling that negative emotion was in service of healing, and I knew that I wouldn’t get better unless I really let myself go those places and feel the feelings at their fullest–the fear I wouldn’t get better, the anger, the sense of unfairness, the feeling of being ‘less than’ somehow because I had a ‘sick’ body. I have always likened those feelings to a clog in the drain–we need to clear it out to let everything flow, to let the ideas of the ‘spirit mind’ or however you think of those sorts of teachings, to permeate more deeply to the point where they actually influence our interpretations and responses to the things that happen to us and what we observe in the world at large.
As for dealing with the pain, I did my best to just observe it from an objective standpoint as much as possible. Many spiritual teachings would tell us that our circumstances aren’t responsible for our feelings, and there wouldn’t be any exceptions, not even physical pain. While it was hard at times, I really tried to embrace that idea and not make exceptions for this sort of circumstance. And when I would observe my mind, I would see that the actual pain wasn’t why I was upset in a given moment. Sure I didn’t like feeling how I felt, but when I tuned into the dialogue of my egoic mind, there were all these stories about what the pain meant, what the illness meant, there was a lot of projecting into the future. As for sleeping, I found that if I tried to relax a bit before going to bed, I would get tired enough that I would fall asleep eventually–I found listening to audio of streams and running water soothing and I would imagine it washing over me and taking the symptoms away. It was challenging at times however because the pain in my body made it difficult to change positions if I got uncomfortable and it did frustrate me since it made falling asleep more difficult.
The main thing I would say based on my experience is you don’t need to worry so much about trying to ‘manifest’ a healthy body. Rather the focus is really on the emotions that may be manifesting as the illness. It was more uncomfortable for sure because it brought me to some really dark places, but it seemed a lot more doable than feeling pressure to ‘change’ my body by way of ‘positive thinking’ Of course that may have its place but again, for me, that wasn’t what got me the healing.
Hope this helps and please don’t hesitate to reach out if you have any other questions
Right. So any degeneration in a neurodegenerative condition can be stopped if I believe it won’t get worse? I
I think talk of ‘healing’ an illness just because symptoms are no longer obvious is really dangerous. And very blaming. I live with a neurodegenerative condition. It is likely to get worse, and that has nothing to do with my beliefs. What my beliefs can radically alter is how I respond to it, how I let it affect my life and peace and happiness, whether I think it defines me or not.
Are all the people with terminal illnesses just not manifesting hard enough? Can the child whose leg was blown off in Gaza grow their limb back? What are you actually saying?
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I think there is some misinterpretation of what I have written here and I am just sharing my own experience with my own health issue and own body. And there is a lot of nuance that can’t be shared in one blog post or a response to a comment. And you are right…there is a lot we can do in terms of working on our beliefs around what illness means and whether or not it defines us because it certainly doesn’t. Best of luck to you.