Law of Attraction: How to Create an Energy Trust Fund that Slays Your Deepest Fear

Happy to present to you another entertaining law of attraction read from my husband Ryan, who is quite the manifesting machine…there is some GREAT stuff in here and I know you guys will love it. Enjoy

“Who do I trust? Me, that’s who!” ~ Tony Montana

I can see Tony sitting in his bubble bath, puffing on a stogie.

After telling off his guy he grabs the remote control, flips through a few TV channels and allows the anger to subside.

Unfortunately for Tony, thinking that he was bullet proof, or invincible, or in total and complete control of his life led to a kinda dicey ending (Don’t want to spoil it for those who haven’t seen Scarface yet…but hell! The movie came out in 1985….watch it already!).

If this seems like a weird lead in to a law of attraction post – especially one written by a guy who blogs from paradise – I have to shift responsibility here.

I can’t take the blame.

The Universe told me to write it. Seriously. I trusted. I was supplied.

I just let the idea in. I allowed it in. Allowed it to make a freaking beeline for my mind.

To knock on my mind’s door like a UPS guy who desperately needs a signature to deliver his package.

I trusted in being supplied by the Supplier. So…while sitting quietly in the living room here, digesting a most stunning scene of towering mountains, a vibrant river and colorful floral patterns in the trees, which seem to have been splotched on the countryside, I was struck by 2 ideas:

1: Write a guest post for Kelli.

2: Title the post “How to Create an Energy Trust Fund that Slays Your Deepest Fear.” Then I just allowed more and more in, and voila! Here I am writing this post on a bright, blessed, spectacular Costa Rican afternoon in the highlands.

But it wasn’t always this way.

I Used to Do My Taxes in January

Seriously…..I did.

Before you think I’m suffering from sun poisoning or perhaps a victim of altitude sickness (stop it you silly willies; we are only a half mile high here), bear with me.

I did my taxes in January because I feared I may not have the money in April to pay them.

I did my taxes in January because I feared the IRS would put me in prison if I didn’t pay

my taxes on April 15th.

I did my taxes in January because….drum roll please….I DID NOT TRUST THAT THE UNIVERSE WOULD MEET EVERY SINGLE NEED I EVER HAD, IN ITS OWN SPECIAL, DIRECT WAY.

I trusted me. That’s who. I trusted in my ability to earn, to control, to manipulate, and to line things up on my own, to create conditions that would lead to happiness.

What a crock of shit. What a lie.

A Lifetime of Mistrust

You see my little kittens, I lived a lifetime of mistrust. Even when I was surrounded by gifts, by manifestations, by blessings which clearly and directly proved to me that some Wizard Behind the Curtain looked out for me, no matter what.

Like Mr. Montana, he of gangsta fame, I trusted “ME, that’s WHO!”, as the grand marshal, the general manager, the big dog, the high roller, the shot caller in my life.

I was as drunk on ego.

I wasn’t so much in love with myself as I loved being in control, the Grand Manipulator, the Only Person or thing or presence I could trust in existence.

Of course, like Tony Montana, damn did I learn a hard lesson. Thank the gods I didn’t wind up face down in a pool of my own blood, in a tacky, garishly designed pool (Sorry guys, you should have watched the movie by now), to learn the trust lesson.

Tony M believed only in himself and his abilities. Which instantly limited him. Which made him distrustful of others. Which closed him off from others. Which led him down a dark path. Which led to his demise.

I took the similar journey; just remove the chest hair (kinda), gold chains, millions of dollars, pet tigers, Coked-out Michelle Pfeiffer’s, tons of cocaina and over the top mansion, and we were/are 2 peas in a pod.

OK, my story was a bit different….

Your Deepest Fear

If you are like most human beings, trusting in something bigger than yourself unearths your deepest fear; the fear of letting go.

It feels like willingly jumping off a cliff and depending on the Universe to plaster angel wings onto your terrified, tremendously tense, dropping body. As you fall like a brick, your mind races to epic levels.

It seems like all of the “fear of letting go” terrors dovetail with every other fear brother. The fear of death. The fear of loss. The fear of criticism. The fear of failure. I can guaran-damn-tee ya, that the fear of letting go is about the strangest fear on earth because letting go forces you to:

Believe in the unseen to create the tangible.

Hmmm….let that one soak in for a few minutes. Then you shall return.

My Deal

After I was fired from my security guard job I went $70,000 into debt. I had tax issues too. Namely, I owed on them.

My life was in shambles. The main problem: *I* had to figure it out. I had zero trust in the Universe. I realized not that, by surrendering, and my letting go, and by outsourcing the situation, I would allow the solutions in.

So yeah, maybe I was as similar to Tony as Bernie Sanders is similar to Donald Trump but I ran into some hellish resistance because I trusted in…”Me, that’s WHO!”, just like old Mr. Montana.

I was freaking in a haze. In a bind. Lost. Hopeless. Humiliated….until I built an Energy Trust Fund. TOTALLY unaware of this idea almost a decade ago when I experienced these circumstances.

I just coined the term today. I think so, at least. But either way, I built an energy trust fund and effortlessly glided through these issues like a hot cuchillo through mantequilla (since we are still in Costa Rica hehehe…).

What Is an Energy Trust Fund?

You’ve probably heard of the term “trust fund baby”, right?

Mama and papa (or either one, or maybe, their grandparents) attract large sums of money. Some of those sums are set aside in a trust fund for the kiddies. The kiddies must wait until a certain age to get their paws on the scrilla. I did not read that definition on Forbes.

Anyway, an energy trust fund is a wonderful energetic investment for any law of attraction fan struggling with the terror/fear/horror of letting go and surrendering.

Here’s how it works: when you build an energy trust fund you can dip into it to access that good old trust currency. Said trust currency – picture Scrooge McDuck’s dubloons, if you will – can be spent to help you release the terror of letting go the fear of surrendering.

(Yes, even though this fear causes you to do really, really stupid things, you still cling to it. Because in your horror it still feels safer to live in mistrustful misery versus living in trusting, tremendously prospering, terrific union with the Universe, because the latter requires clear acts of faith and some detachment from outcomes.)

As you dip deeper into your energetic trust fund (at any age, mind you) a funny thing happens. Since you are conquering the formerly deeply-held fear of letting go you begin to see how trusting in something bigger than you has been of benefit.

You see how the Universe has righted situations. Completely independent of your doltish ego meddling.

Back to My Deal

Time to rewind to my story.

$70,000 in debt. Back taxes. Nightmare.

I finally surrendered. Had no clue in Hades how I was getting out of this one.

Those law of attraction smarties spoke of trusting that the Universe would fix things if I let it in. If I stopped forcing things. If I used power. Not force.

A really strange idea hit me as I sat in silence.

I had: a roof over my head, food in the fridge, electricity, loving relationships, some money, support, breath, and about 100 other things I appreciated.

Yet, I never consciously trusted myself, implicitly, to: find the building materials to build the apartment, or, to grow the apples and lettuce in the fridge, nor, to set up the power lines to deliver the electricity to my home.

Shit! Something bigger really WAS at play. And it wasn’t so much the effort of thousands and thousands of folks to set up my blessings, it was The Universe acting through all of these folks, being the wizard behind the curtain, doing what It does best, to align me with my blessings.

Oh shit. I felt sheepish. I *really do* just allow it all in, or, keep it out. “It” meaning neat stuff, trips, love, loving folks, all forms of goodness.

And I do this as a co-creator. A trusting co-creator who assails his fear of surrendering or letting go….or as a resistant co-creator who manifests endless stress, worry, anxiety and crappy circumstances.

The Turning Point

After this enlightening moment (for a second or 5 I felt enlightened), I surrendered. I let go. I trusted in the Universe to take care of me. I gave up. I ceded control.

A little while later one idea hit me (i.e., I let the Universe in, trusting in It after I let go after I dipped into my energy trust fund): declare bankruptcy. So I did. Humiliating at first, but as I trusted, I released the ego-based humiliation bullshit and felt like a clean slate.

I curiously enough attracted the money to file for bankruptcy and went through the process.

Thanks, Universe.

I called the IRS. So they wouldn’t put me in jail, or eat me, or murder me. The Universe sent me that intuitive impulse too. I trusted, and I was supplied.

The alleged savage wolves of the IRS were like meek lambs. So nice and courteous. So I appreciative that I called to settle with a payment plan. So understanding.

A funny idea hit me: if the Universe is in them, too, it kinda makes sense that when I surrendered and trusted that stuff may flow smoothly. Not that it always does, of course, but it always leads you in the direction of Fun, Freedom and Fulfillment (feel free to tweet that to your twitter followings guys).

I set up the payment plan. Made my first $50 payment. DAMN did I feel free! Energy slate, wiped clean again.

Thanks Universe. Maybe I should trust you more often.

The End Result

Hey silly there is no end result. Sorry. We are whole and complete, limitless beings, living forever and ever….amen….but since you have subscribed to wifey Kelli’s blog to manifest neat stuff this happened after I dipped into my energy trust fund, to release my fears, and to be supplied with these two inspired, fool-proof, freeing ideas I had formerly resisted for years.

I let in the ideas of filing for bankruptcy and for paying my taxes. Had no clue about each before I trusted. Then I attracted the money to file for bankruptcy and went through the process. Then I acted on the inspired idea to set up a payment plan with the IRS.

The thing guys, letting in these solutions and acting on these ideas and trusting the Universe to right things – through me – led to my current day dream life.

No way in hell I circle the globe and start my business if I am 70 K in debt, fighting off creditors, or if I didn’t address my back taxes.

The miracle of this inspired life was rooted in me building a trust fund. Then I dipped into that sucker to surrender to the Universe. Then I let in the ideas and circumstances to free me. I acted on these ideas. I set up a springboard which catapulted Kelli and I to Bali.

Kelli and I decided to travel the world together. We booked flight tickets to Bali. My life changed – for the better – in a dramatic way because I began to find out who I really was during my world travels. We haven’t looked back. This May, we’ll have been circling the globe for 5 years. Because I trusted.

If I didn’t trust the Universe and allow those ideas in I’d likely be struggling to find part time work as a security guard, almost a decade later. I’m not kidding. You’d not know the Blogging from Paradise guy.

I Have Felt Your Pain

I have felt the horror of letting go. I know the overwhelming pain of financial burdens which would have turned Sisyphus into a pussy.

I also know how it feels to spend more time in the tropics than malaria, hopping from Bali to Fiji to Costa Rica to Thailand.

How did I leap the chasm from pobrecito to power broker blogger and world traveling blogger?

I trusted the Universe to handle the heavy lifting. All I had to do was be present, relax a bit and allow ideas, circumstances and people to manifest solutions and sweetness for me.

Of course, I did act on many of those ideas I attracted but I didn’t *need* to do it. I just did it. Because I trusted the ideas were “Good Money”. Ya know. Coming from God and all.

How to Build an Energy Trust Fund

1: Appreciate Everything in Your Life Now

I built an appreciation list in mind and on paper. Instantly, I saw all the areas in my life where I was supplied by The Supplier, without consciously trying to *get* anything. That instantly added some serious currency to my trust fund.

Speak an appreciation list now. Guaranteed you find 100 or 300 or more things and people you appreciate and many of those things and folks moved into your life without you trusting yourself to bring them into your life.

This is code for: “The Universe had your back when you turned your back on the Universe. See how loving and generous it is?” Appreciate it all. Rough patches. Sour patches. Sweet patches. Then, your energy trust fund will grow quickly, so you can dip into it whenever you want to, to outsource your stuff to the Universe.

2: Outsource it All

Your duty as an ever expanding spirit in a meat suit: have fun doing what you do, from an appreciative space.

The Universe handles everything else. I mean everything. From money to friends to romantic interests to homes to cars to everything, everything, to food to everything, to everything, your Supplier works 24-7 until eternity AFTER you outsource it all.

Outsourcing builds your energy trust fund to epic, epic levels.

Example: During a 6 week stretch Kelli and I house sat in the jungles of Costa Rica. No electricity, no internet. We trudged into town once weekly to check email and write blog posts.

I played (disguised as “work”) about 14 hours total during those 6 weeks. Didn’t network at all. Usually, I networked 3 to 6 hours a day, 6 days a week. But I made the conscious, deliberate decision to outsource everything save having fun to the Universe. I stuck to that intent.

During that 6 week period of basically zero work I appeared on Richard Branson’s Virgin blog, Forbes and Neil Patel’s world-renowned blog (4 times) and I saw 4 new income streams arise.

When the same power that raises and lowers the sun handles outcomes, instead of your puny mind, neat things may just happen.

3: Surround Yourself with Trusting People Who Have Manifested Awesomeness

Follow my blog. Follow Kelli’s blog.

We are human and prone to not trusting in moments but damn it if we don’t live a ridiculously cool, movie-worthy life?

From paupers to Playa Dominicalito.

From business failures to Bali.

Kelli and I followed inspired folks like Melody Fletcher and Rikka Zimmerman. Seeing these brilliant people trusting, and manifesting awesomeness, and helping so many other folks inspired us to build our trust funds so we could dip in when we felt it was time to dip in, to make the leap and to quantum jump our way to freedom and fulfillment, on a bridge of fun, supplied via the Universe.

Is This Post an Excuse to Be a Bum?

I do not sit around in paradise with my shirt off all day long, doing nothing, counting my blessings.

No ma’am. No sir.

I just sit sit around in paradise wearing only my underwear all day long, doing nothing, counting my blessings. (I’ll be here all week folks; that’s a joke.)

This post goads you to relax, to trust, and to devote all of your energies to acting on fun ideas (attracted from Good Old Uni) while you feel appreciative, loved, supplied, and whole and complete.

Acting on fun energies may mean: booking your trip to Costa Rica. Or starting a blog. Or quitting your job. I’ve no idea. God will tell ya. If you build up your energy trust fund and dip in, frequently.

You’ll act from a fun space. And you’ll allow from a trusting, peaceful, “I feel whole and complete and everything is extra/a bonus type space.”

Your Turn

Do you have an energy trust fund?

Yes? No?

How can you gain more trust in the Universe?

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