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Hi Kelli! Can you discuss improving your health with law of attraction? Or just how our thoughts manifest in our bodies? <\/span><\/em><\/p>\n Many people may be drawn to a teaching like the law of attraction to improve a health issue. This can be an area where believing in mind over matter can be particularly challenging. We haven\u2019t exactly been strongly instilled with the idea we can heal ourselves. <\/span><\/p>\n While the medical community may acknowledge some sort of link between our state of mind and our health, in the form of stress mainly, that illness begins in our energy body in the form of stuck and repressed emotions, and the like, and then manifests in the physical may seem like a bit of a stretch. <\/span><\/p>\n The idea that disease itself is a symptom of some sort of energetic\/emotional imbalance, and not the result of some solely physical \u2018malfunction,\u2019 that the label of a specific illness isn\u2019t even technically necessary for healing, can seem a bit out there. <\/span><\/p>\n There are so many angles to cover here and I couldn\u2019t possibly touch on them all. I think this is one aspect of life in particular where trying to \u2018understand\u2019 \u00a0and \u2018make sense\u2019 of fully how our energy manifests itself will be particularly futile, so I’m not going to go into that, especially since I don’t even fully understand it myself.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Having personally experienced a serious health issue I was able to heal in this manner, I do have some personal insights that I can share, and I have touched upon the core things I think were most helpful in my own journey, and hopefully you will find some value in that. <\/span><\/p>\n Like any other manifestation, a health issue is mirroring something back to you. It is bringing a fear to light; it is validating some sort of belief or perspective you hold. It feels like other feelings you have been having. It is representing SOMETHING. <\/span><\/p>\n In my situation, the specific nature of my health issue was mirroring back a number of fears for me, fears that I was aware of to some degree, but didn\u2019t realize how strong, until this condition showed up, literally overnight. <\/span><\/p>\n One of my biggest fears had been the loss of my freedom, something I value very highly, so highly I crafted my whole life around being able to experience it as much as possible. <\/span><\/p>\n The condition I was dealing with caused a lot of pain and affected my mobility–all of a sudden I couldn\u2019t do the simplest tasks, things I wouldn\u2019t think twice about before, like walking, opening a bottle of water or washing my hair. <\/span><\/p>\n If things continued like they were, I could kiss traveling good-bye, one of the things I love most in life. I was devastated. <\/span><\/p>\n Ryan had to do so much for me during this time, and I felt a deep shame at needing so much help, when I had always prided myself on my independence. I worried he would resent me for being \u2018weak,\u2019 for \u2018ruining\u2019 our life. <\/span><\/p>\n At the time my symptoms showed up, I had been making a lot of strides in other areas of my life, and felt like I had released a lot of shit. I was feeling good. And then this thing happened. I remember thinking how when things are going well, something has to come along and ruin it, that there always has to be that \u2018balance.\u2019<\/span><\/p>\n This is a pretty deeply ingrained universal belief, that when we have a better understanding of how reality functions, is complete bullshit and makes zero sense. But alas, I was harboring it, again, to a stronger degree than I realized. <\/span><\/p>\n The important thing when doing this, is letting whatever comes up, come up without judgment. Some of the beliefs may seem really weird or out there. Some of the beliefs may be beliefs that you intellectually understand are not valid, based on your understanding of a teaching like the law of attraction, but you still kind of believe them, so you have to be honest about that. <\/span><\/p>\n Thinking in terms of metaphors can also be helpful. Maybe your joint pain represents a lack of flexibility. Your back pain represents carrying some sort of burden. Chronic constipation might mean you are holding onto something that you really should let go. <\/span><\/p>\n When considering this, just let whatever comes up, come up, even if it doesn\u2019t seem to make sense. Manifestations are very personal, so whatever is popping into your mind is surely relevant. <\/span><\/p>\n Like anyone else, I Googled my symptoms, and they pointed to a number of really distressing conditions, conditions considered chronic and incurable, conditions where my symptoms would just get worse, conditions where a number of other symptoms would likely emerge at some point, conditions where my only option, at least according to the medical community, would be to take toxic medications that would likely cause a lot of really terrible side effects. <\/span><\/p>\n I feared whatever was happening to me was just the beginning and it was going to get much, much worse. I was just in the early stages of something that was going to stay with me the rest of my life. I was going to be a \u2018sick\u2019 person. With no warning, I felt like my life had completely changed, and every facet of it was going to be dictated by my \u2018sickness.\u2019<\/span><\/p>\n Like anyone else, I am instilled with fears and conditioning that doesn\u2019t exactly support our ability to heal ourselves, that doesn\u2019t exactly support a better-feeling perspective on illness. I bought into the idea my body was out of my control, and that there wasn\u2019t anything I could do. <\/span><\/p>\n One day I was healthy, and the next day, I was facing a life of chronic pain, potential disability and the loss of my life as I knew it. It was a lot to process. This was a HUGE manifestation for me that brought up so much stuff with an intensity I had never experienced before. <\/span><\/p>\n For the first couple of weeks I was dealing with this, I had at least one major meltdown a day, sometimes two. Like nuclear-level meltdown–crying until I couldn\u2019t breathe, feeling total despair. There were times when my husband Ryan, got really scared because he didn\u2019t know what to do with me. <\/span><\/p>\n I didn\u2019t realize until this point how much of a fear of getting sick I was harboring. <\/span><\/p>\n I felt like I was broken, \u2018damaged goods.\u2019 I felt less-than. To feel like there is something fundamentally wrong with you feels really shitty. Now intellectually I understood this wasn\u2019t true. I would never think that way about someone else who had a health problem.<\/span><\/p>\n But that is what I was feeling so I had to let myself feel it. Now some of you reading this may not feel that level of distress about your situation; your condition may not be something that feels so scary or has as big of an impact on your day to day life. <\/span><\/p>\n My point is, whatever level of emotion you are feeling, whether about your illness or anything else in life, LET YOURSELF FEEL IT to whatever degree it is existing. Don\u2019t judge it. Don\u2019t tone it down because you think you are over-reacting. As wonderful and supportive as Ryan was, I have no doubt on some level, he thought I was fucking nuts. <\/span><\/p>\n But the thing is, yeah, I was distressed about the symptoms themselves–I was in a LOT of pain all the time–but what I was really distressed about was what the illness was REPRESENTING to me. And it was representing a lot of things that I found extremely upsetting, things that were very scary to me, and I had to let myself feel the full weight of that fear and upset. <\/span><\/p>\n Yes, it may feel really shitty. It might feel scary to let yourself go there. It might be the last thing you feel like doing. <\/span><\/p>\n Believe me, I get it. Feeling the way I was feeling, and experiencing it on a daily basis for an extended time, was kind of the worst. Sometimes I just didn\u2019t have the energy and I wanted to bottle it up, but I couldn\u2019t. I knew when I woke up, at some point in the day, it was going to come and I dreaded it. <\/span><\/p>\n Past that initial point, I toned down the crying spells quite a bit but they still came here and there, and when they did, I didn\u2019t fight them. <\/span><\/p>\n I hated when I was in the space of fearing I wouldn\u2019t get better, of buying into having a condition I can\u2019t cure and just \u2018living\u2019 with it. But fighting it wasn\u2019t going to do me a bit of good. <\/span><\/p>\n While I knew in my heart I would be able to get better, that I wasn\u2019t going to accept whatever this was, continuing to exist, there were certainly times I was fearful I wouldn\u2019t get better. I feared I would \u2018fail\u2019 at healing myself. And I had to let myself have those moments. <\/span><\/p>\n I have no doubt my insane breakdowns were the number one contributor to my healing. There was a shift each time I had one. I was purging something. I was letting go of all the deep-seated emotions that were buried in there, that were manifesting as this condition. <\/span><\/p>\n My biggest shift in my condition was right after my last big breakdown, the biggest of them all. I know that is not a coincidence. <\/span><\/p>\n While I wasn\u2019t freaking out every moment, it was a period of months where I wasn\u2019t feeling so hot, and although my symptoms continuing to improve certainly made it easier to feel better, they weren\u2019t totally gone, nor was the fears I wouldn\u2019t get totally better. <\/span><\/p>\n But I got through it. I just surrendered to it, knowing ultimately I was going to be okay. I know we want to avoid negative emotion at all costs; I get that we just want to feel happy all the time.<\/span><\/p>\n But feeling badly isn\u2019t the end of the world, and if we are willing to be with our shit, like really be with it, you would be amazed at how much more quickly things can turn around compared to when we try to suppress it, and just sit around hoping we manifest the stuff we want sooner than later so we can finally feel better. <\/span><\/p>\n Again, lots of limiting beliefs and perspectives when it comes to health and our bodies. Nothing can trigger our fears like dealing with illness, especially if you are being told you can\u2019t do anything about it. <\/span><\/p>\n Believing you can heal yourself, believing your illness is simply an energetic \u2018imbalance\u2019 of some sort or just a manifestation of your belief system, can seem really hard to buy into on deeper levels, even for the staunchest believer in these perspectives, when you are actually in the thick of the problem. <\/span><\/p>\n Sometimes the best way to transform energetically is honoring our fears and limiting beliefs because they are too strong, and can actually help foster a positive expectation more strongly. <\/span><\/p>\n You\u2019ll know when to do this and when to act \u2018against\u2019 them.<\/span><\/p>\n In my own experience, for example, I chose not to go to a doctor and receive a diagnosis. I imagine most people in my situation would not have done this–sudden onset of pretty serious symptoms that were widespread. <\/span><\/p>\n The nature of my symptoms didn\u2019t seem to indicate the need for any immediate medical intervention–I didn\u2019t feel my life was in danger. \u00a0So while there was certainly a part of me questioning this decision, by and large, I felt this was how I wanted to handle it. <\/span><\/p>\n For me PERSONALLY, receiving a diagnosis would have likely been more harmful than helpful. I was already extremely distressed, and having some sort of \u2018label\u2019 for my symptoms would have just amplified that. Some people might feel the opposite though, and knowing what it was might have made them feel more empowered. <\/span><\/p>\n If my symptoms indicated any of the conditions I thought I might have had, I was just going to be told my condition was chronic and incurable, and given a bunch of medications that would hopefully suppress my symptoms, and that was basically the best I could hope for. <\/span><\/p>\n Since I didn\u2019t have any plans to buy into that line of reasoning, and take the medications, I didn\u2019t see a point of going to the doctor. <\/span><\/p>\n Whether testing would indicate a specific condition or that there was no identifiable cause for what was happening, clearly there was something very wrong, and getting the specifics didn\u2019t seem necessary. <\/span><\/p>\n If what was happening to my body was merely the result of something happening \u2018energetically\u2019 what the condition was specifically seemed irrelevant to me, so a diagnosis didn\u2019t seem to be part of the healing equation. <\/span><\/p>\n But one thing I did have to honor was my belief that certain natural supplements might have helped my condition. Again, the belief that healing is totally within our own capability, and medications and supplements are mere \u2018placebos\u2019 might not be something we can FULLY buy into when we are actually faced with a health problem .<\/span><\/p>\n But I didn\u2019t want to go overboard here, so I chose just a few, and committed to taking them diligently. <\/span><\/p>\n Now while one could technically label this a limiting belief, a decision that had \u2018fear\u2019 at the root, honoring this was actually the more beneficial route because I was doing something I felt would be beneficial, that would help me heal.<\/span><\/p>\n To not allow myself to take them because that would indicate a lack of \u2018faith\u2019 to heal with just my mind, would have actually worked against me. I would have had too much resistance to this idea; I would have been constantly worrying I wasn\u2019t doing \u2018enough\u2019 to facilitate my healing. <\/span><\/p>\n Eventually I stopped taking the supplements. I wasn\u2019t totally healed at this point, but was much, much better, and ultimately I knew what was really healing me. So at this time, I felt confident doing this. And I continued to get better. <\/span><\/p>\n So if you feel good about taking your medications, keep taking them. If you believe taking a certain supplement or making certain changes to your diet will help, do that. <\/span><\/p>\n If you have just been diagnosed with a serious illness, and your doctor is telling you the only thing that will manage your symptoms or keep you alive is taking this pill, and you would be really scared to not take it, take it, at least for now. <\/span><\/p>\n Yes, ultimately I believe true healing lies in that energetic transformation, but the idea that we need things outside of us to facilitate healing or prevent disease is pretty deeply ingrained. Honoring that will usually work in our favor. We just want to keep in mind the ultimate source of our healing; we want to remember when the medications and supplements and what not, don’t seem to be ‘working,’ they aren’t the true cause of healing anyway, so it’s okay, and there is still hope.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n We want to do our best to take these actions, and make use of the supplements, medications, treatments and special diets from a space of feeling like we are healing ourselves, contributing to our health, not fearing and \u2018fighting\u2019 the conditions. <\/span><\/p>\n When we start seeing the link more clearly between our energy and our health, it can be a great motivator for prioritizing your well-being and vibration \u2018management.\u2019 <\/span><\/p>\n Lots of things that wouldn\u2019t seemingly be connected to getting sick might be very connected. <\/span><\/p>\n Lots of energetic \u2018ick\u2019 can accumulate over time, from seemingly benign things, or things that don\u2019t seem like a \u2018big\u2019 deal but very well may be, like overextending yourself and making too many commitments, to having trouble saying \u2018no\u2019 to people, and constantly doing things you really don\u2019t want to be doing. <\/span><\/p>\n When we start seeing how all of this stuff can lend itself to illness manifesting, it gets a lot easier to make positive changes, honor ourselves and live our life the way we want to live it.<\/span><\/p>\n Doing a bunch of shit you don\u2019t want to do so people you really don\u2019t even care about don\u2019t dislike you hardly seems worth manifesting cancer. \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n Not living your life the way you want to live it so you don\u2019t make others uncomfortable hardly seems worth manifesting a chronic illness that impacts every facet of your day to day life. <\/span><\/p>\n Remaining in relationships with people that are toxic or you just don\u2019t want to be around, but you feel \u2018badly\u2019 ending them hardly seems worth constant digestive distress.<\/span><\/p>\n Pursuing a stressful career path in which you have no interest, simply to please your parents, hardly seems worth blinding migraines. <\/span><\/p>\n It would seem there can be some pretty serious consequences to not being true to ourselves, not standing up for ourselves, not living our life the way we want to live it, always trying to please others, putting our own needs last. <\/span><\/p>\n Having health issues kind of sucks, and I imagine most of us would want to do as much as we could to maximize the chances of remaining healthy. Paying attention to ALL the things that drag down your energy, how your choices make you feel, and how much you are living in alignment with your highest good will help you do that. <\/span><\/p>\n One of my biggest lessons is working on nipping things in the bud sooner than later. We have to work on not letting things build up. When we do that, the energy just gains more and more steam, and usually ends up manifesting in bigger, nastier ways. <\/span><\/p>\n Now this doesn\u2019t mean I spend every waking moment monitoring my thoughts and feelings, or I am constantly \u2018processing\u2019 negative emotion. It just means I don\u2019t suppress emotion. <\/span><\/p>\n I don\u2019t try to force myself to be happy if I\u2019m not. I don\u2019t judge my emotions and try to shut them down because I think I \u2018shouldn\u2019t feel that way given what I know,etc\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n While I was dealing with this issue, I made sure I was kind to myself. I didn\u2019t put pressure on myself to do things I didn\u2019t want to do. <\/span><\/p>\n During this time, I still blogged and did my podcasts. But only when inspiration struck. I never forced myself to do them if I wasn\u2019t feeling it. And this lack of pressure is what probably led me to still put out content on the same schedule I had always been. <\/span><\/p>\n If I had a day where the only thing I wanted to do was watch TV, that is what I did. If I wanted to sleep, I slept. <\/span><\/p>\n Nothing was more important to me than healing, and that was my main priority. <\/span><\/p>\n In your own life, you may not be able to totally withdraw from everything. You may still have shit you have to do, like take care of your kids. It\u2019s okay. You can still make that healing space. It may involve some uncomfortable choices or changes, but I think it\u2019s worth it. <\/span><\/p>\n If I am honest, there is a part of me that sometimes fears this happening again, especially because the symptoms came on so suddenly out of nowhere. I honor that fear–trying to fight it just gives it more energy. <\/span><\/p>\n Ultimately at the end of the day, there is nothing I can do to guarantee 100 percent<\/em> it doesn\u2019t come back–that really isn\u2019t the kind of control we have, much to our mind\u2019s disappointment. At some point, there may be energies that will need to manifest in the physical, and something I need to be shown, and this will be the ‘best’ way to experience it. Hope not, but again, can’t really truly control it.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n The only thing \u00a0I can do is keep in mind the energies that likely led it to show up in the first place, and do my best not to let them build, to be more conscious of what is happening in my inner world, and do my best to keep my vibration as \u2018clean\u2019 as possible by reinforcing the beliefs and perspectives that lend themselves to health.<\/span><\/p>\n What did you think? Anything resonate in particular? Have you used ‘energy’ work to heal and any suggestions?<\/p>\nWhat Does the Illness Represent to You?<\/span><\/h4>\n
Diving into the Shit<\/span><\/h4>\n
Honoring Fears and Limiting Beliefs<\/span><\/h4>\n
Staying Energetically Healthy<\/span><\/h4>\n
Your Turn<\/span><\/h4>\n